rawjourney365

Yesterday’s post was about self-love and today, Valentine’s Day is about receiving love.  Since I (and we) all need a balance of both — giving and receiving.   Yes, I know for some of you it’s about giving love — I’m not ignoring that aspect of today (or any day), I’m just going to take some time to reflect on my ability to RECEIVE.  

I’ve been putting a lot of energy out during the last 2 weeks — supporting my son as he moves through this healing crisis.  I am looking at it as an Initiation and still not sure what the lessons will be.  I know it’ll take some time.

So what are the lessons for me?  It sure is pushing on my own healing crisis — that of nurturing and nourishing myself.  It’s much harder for me when I’m taking such full-time care of one of my children.  

And I notice myself wanting to reach out for help, wanting to ask a friend or 3 to support me in some way.  And then I notice that I can in fact do (whatever it is) myself.  There’s a balance in there somewhere around knowing ‘when’ to ask for help and knowing ‘when’ to believe in myself.  Can both be true at the same time?  

I think so.  I think I can both believe in myself — and receive that from ME — along with asking for help/support and RECEIVING from another.  What’s my threshold for asking for help?  Do I have to be sick in bed with a fever unable to lift my head?  Is it okay to be behind on chores and ask for some moral (or physical support)?  Is it okay to ask for a meal or two if I CAN make them myself?  What about the others who need support this week? My friend whose mom died?  Another who is going through some significant business stress?  Another whose husband may leave?  One healing from a year-long health struggle?  I could go on….but I can see that it’s getting kind of depressing to read.  :(    Then again, this is life – part of it.  

When I met my husband (now ex-husband), he told me that life was hard.  Before that, even though my mother had already transitioned, I didn’t want to believe it.   I have this fire in me that still FIRMLY believes that life is meant to be enjoyed.  Now that may mean diving deeply into my heart and soul and healing from something painful but I know on the other side, there’s immense joy and relaxation.

So it’s been a challenging time…and interestingly enough I’ve committed to blogging every day!  And if you knew me personally, you’d know that I’m not going to just write about bogus stuff; that I’m here to tell the truth.  

One truth is that it’s been hard to keep up with my raw plus one cup commitment since all of this happened with my son.  A fellow Women on Fire just posted something about gaining momentum again by choosing 4 days to do something you are committed to and then taking it from there.  I like that.  She said this, “The Four-Day Win by Martha Beck is very helpful. It’s a book about weight loss, but the idea can be applied to any sort of goal. Basically you make it ridiculously easy to succeed for four days, and by then you are in the groove. You link a few of these four-day wins together and you have some serious momentum. Highly recommend this.”   I haven’t checked it out yet but can just apply the principle.  

Here’s to GOOD health, GOOD LOVIN, and and lots of self-compassion.  

Receiving is something I’m working on this year…..

Robyn